Despite my Rage


In tribute to
Your conviction
You made
Your stand against
The corners of
My heart
Pressing against
The flowing beats
You felt
My love but
Denied the truth to
Justify your
Means

You spoke of
Her in
Her time as
I spoke of
Me in
Mine and
Within all
You said I
Can not be
Fine, yet…

Rage against you…
I can not!

The mirror of
Transparency doesn’t
Allow for
My anger to
Mutate into
A battle of
Wrong and
Right

Rage against you…
I can not!

This battle is
Not your fight.

Instead
I look into
My own eyes
And see
My anger is
Righteous in
Its justification as
It grows
Consciousness and
Stares me down
to say,
“Into your own face
Let it rage.”

Rage knowing…
It was my
Own heart I
Ignored

Rage knowing…
Confirmation is
Condemnation of
What I knew while
Hoping for
More—

More from
You so
Your words and
Your actions would
Align in
Harmonious
Truth
And my truth
Wouldn’t have
Need in
The eyes of
Your love

But in foolish
Belief I
Knew my
Truth and
I didn’t give
It voice to
Speak and
Surface to
Say goodbye
Sooner in
Reverence
And in
Honor for
Me
Myself and
My need in
My heart

Instead I
Let your
Words of
Conviction
Lead me
Along
Longer than
Should have been

And in
The end I
Am left to
Let my anger
Rage
Rage long
Enough to
Rage against
The only person
Responsible
And in
Love in
This moment of
Love I will
Let it go
To Breathe in
The acceptance of
Growth of
Awareness to
Know I
Now know
Better

I have
Learned
A greater truth—

It is
Not for
Words
Spoken or
Promises
Broken but
For ears to
Listen to
The heart of
Truth to
The truth
We all know
Inside

How often we
Ignore the
Obvious
Truth

How often
Inside
Do we
Know
But let
The words of
Hope
Lead us
Against
Truth and
Cause us
To rage against
The blame

It is
Not
What we
Do but
What we
Do in
Truth that
Makes the
Difference
Toward
Healing

This is my truth.

I rage against me
No more.

Truth and
Hope are
Not the
Same but
When truth is
The hope then
Peace is
Found

Rage against myself
I am not bound

I have
Found
Peace
Within

And this is my conviction…

I love you despite my rage

Rage against you…
No more.

For in
My love I
Never closed that
Door and
Fight against
Myself
There is
No need
Any more

I know
The truth and
In love
The truth is
What I
Adore

Rage
Rage
Rage against—
No more.

CL Oct 2011

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